The roller-coaster ride of values and plans continues into the present month, Pisces. You're actually not as crazy as you think you are but then again you're not as normal as consensus thinking would like you to imagine. You win when you acknowledge all your parts no matter how strange. It's a stretch perhaps but no more so than many others that you have put yourself through lately as you practice your yoga of the mind and heart. Over the second half of the month your communication sizzles and leaves very little unspoken. If not to yourself, you might be able to get your point across to others regarding the multiple paradoxes of your situation. The end of the month presages breakthrough, and the weeks that follow will be like nothing you have yet seen.
As the month begins, you are investigating your possibilities for future growth based on new assumptions and a desire to communicate your truth to others. Your actual conversational abilities might appear muted unless deeper matters are being discussed, since with Mercury retrograding through your communication sector your mind is turned inward at this time. The Last Quarter Moon of Wednesday, May 5th, is an occasion for greater scrutiny of your process. This is what Rudhyar called "the crisis of consciousness" referring to the way we finally come to see things as the cycle of lunation that began last month wears down almost completely. Obviously there are lessons. Yours could have to do with an educational approach to the world you are living in, as mediated by your own particular development as you interact with that world now and in your own way. A time of relative tension could appear as you wrestle with new concepts that are being formed in response but you won't let that sidetrack you from your underlying objective to break free of conditioning and sail ahead into wholeness. The New Moon of Thursday, May 13th, provides fresh energy and a determination to find new ways of being and doing. Your concept of where you are headed is, it seems, a moving target right now, but one that will come into greater clarity by the end of this month and on into the summer, when radical change will assert itself more fully and you will begin to accept a very different view of future plans. You have an even greater urge to investigate your psychological surroundings now than ever, and the urge to communicate your ideas to others also. Some of these might involve the recognition of past patterns of behavior that stem from ancient wounds to your self-esteem, have become entrenched, and have outlived their utility in the present era. If you can feel the tingle of a hint of these dark places within you, now in this second half of the month is the time to explore it. The quest for self-knowledge might become more poignant with the First Quarter Moon of Thursday, May 20th. This is a time when the rubber meets the road with changes that you are contemplating, and when you are forced to look more closely at the arc of your development to see which parts of it are truly viable. You also might be able at this time to tune more fully in to awareness of early trauma that might be rising up out of the past to hider present growth. Recognizing these buried parts of yourself is an important first step toward moving beyond them. The Full Moon at nearly month's end, taking place on Thursday, May 27th, is another turning point for you, when you will feel both the urge to go deeper into your experience and also the pull of the mundane world as a reaction and a counter-balance. You will inevitably honor both sides of this seesaw and it makes illogical sense from a deeper level that you do so. It pays not to question the essentially paradoxical nature of your experience.